27 December 2014

The predictable 2014 round-up


I hope everyone has had a very Merry Christmas, full of mince pies, bubbles and merriment.

Although in life I encourage people to be original, sometimes it's a case of "if you can't beat 'em, join 'em". So in that regard, I'd grab a handful of Quality Street if I were you, because you're about to be privy to my very own 2014 round-up.

However, rather than my top 10 highlights, or things I've learned, I thought I'd be a little bit different and look at my life, quarter by quarter. Exciting, huh?

January - March

Top post: Can We Please Stop Body-Shaming? Thanks

I started the year a bit shamelessly, probably because I was full of confidence about getting a job (this was 6 months before my internship was due to end, so it wasn't really an issue). I had that swagger that came with a regular influx of dollar into my account.

I also became quite jaded at this point by weekly mags which one week, promoted how great so and so looked, then the following week was fat-shaming them because they'd been caught at the wrong angle and clearly gained a couple of pounds (god forbid). It was making me more conscious of the way I perceived people's bodies, and before long I was became just as judgmental. Awful. The final push came when I was scrolling through Millie Mackintosh's Instagram, when I realised how stupid and insensitive it is to negatively comment on people's shape when they know nothing about them.

I also turned 22, and came forward about my mental illness. No biggie.

April - June 

Top post: There Ain't No Rest For The Wicked

Fast-forward to this post, which was written in June when I'd finished my internship and things were all a-change. I'd had my leaving drinks, said my goodbyes, and had just started my new job as a Beauty Team Assistant. At this point I felt pretty untouchable - new job, new house, things with my friends were good, and it was the beginning of summer in London. I'd experienced the joy that is Paris with one of my closest friends, and I was looking forward to what was to come. Glorious, right?

July - September

Top post: When Life Throws You Lemons...

It's almost comic how drastically my life changed in these few months. The job I thought was a side-step from in-house to agency turned out to be a purely admin based role, with no guaranteed promotion into PR. That meant no events, no press appointments, no reaching out to journalists and bloggers... But I had no idea. It turned out the role was never fully explained to me, so my attempting to do a role I wasn't recruited for didn't go down too well.

Being dismissed was a turning point for me. I'm glad it happened (see my follow-up to this post here). But trying to deal with this change in direction was extremely difficult for a control freak like me who had been set on this career path for 8 years of my life. Thankfully, I had my trip to America to distance myself from the situation, so when I returned I felt more positive and determined to make things work. However, that meant cutting costs, a lot.

October - December

Top post: Confessions of a Single Girl

Oh em gee - this post went crazy! It's definitely the closest to "viral" any of my posts have ever gone, in the sense it was being linked to by people outside of my social media network. It was very exciting. Although someone did say that they clicked on it thinking it would be "Diary of a Call Girl"-esque (so they were obviously very disappointed with the lack of graphic sexcapades) but hey, beggars can't be choosers.

Apart from the assumption that there would be more sex and less "meh", I think the reason people liked it so much was because they agreed there seems to be this unspoken rule in society that a relationship equals success, regardless of how dysfunctional that relationship is. As if being together, unhappy, is way better than being alone. Which isn't true, of course. I'm so pleased people responded to it and felt like they could relate to it.

Present

There's no getting around it: this year has been terribly difficult for me. And it's been finished off by being rejected from a role I so badly wanted, and believed it would be the beginning of a wonderful 2015 if I got it. But I didn't.

What has been wonderful, however, is this blog. Although I don't have many bloglovin' followers, each follower is really important to me. Because let's face it - the only thing I'm promoting on this blog is my thoughts, feelings and mediocre life happenings. It's not like I'm recommending beauty products, or showcasing exciting travel adventures to exotic locations.

Thanks to the #SETSessions with About Time Magazine, I redefined my blog and realised what it was about, and why I was doing what I was doing. If you actually followed my blog before that, I feel for you! So it means so much when people comment or respond, because it feels like I'm not alone. And there have been times this year when I've felt utterly alone and hopeless.

Thank you for reading. Thank you for liking, commenting, retweeting or favourite-ing. Thank you for your support. It means more than you know.

2015 - please be my year!

                                        

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4 comments

  1. Loved this, and just generally love how bloody forthcoming you are. I'm working on my round up too but it's no way as entertaining as yours! I hope 2015 is a great year for us both!

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    1. I think it must be a talent of mine to make a mediocre year sound entertaining! Thanks so much for reading. Fingers (and toes) crossed for 2015 x

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  2. I love the way you write, and I truly enjoy reading your blog even if I don't always comment (I sometimes read at work or so and don't have time to comment... and then I end up forgetting, lol).

    I hope 2015 is much better for you. :)

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